“If we wait, we might get to see him.”

“Do you really think so? He may not want to see us.”

The waiting game’s not easy, but he had done it his whole life and now it was his time for payback. The fool followed fame as he pretended to be something bigger than life (as he waited to actually be bigger than life). After pretending he had arrived for so long, he actually convinced himself that he had arrived.

“Do you think he’ll recognize us?”

She had a strange look in her eyes as she asked the question. She remembered how he treated her before she left. She wondered why she was interested in him at all.

“Hey, baby! Long time.”

“Not long enough.”

The two women turned away and walked towards the hotel.

“I told you!”

“I know, Mother.”

From the old simply.personal, circa 2000.

Originally, we weren’t planning on going. We were always too busy to do much of anything anymore, or, at least, it seemed that way. Brushing off the daily grind to have some fun enjoying what you really like to do seems so difficult at times, but some things remind you how important it is to hold on to the good stuff. Something inside told me that we should do it – make the time and go!

So, I thought I was just going to a Clapton concert. I had never seen him and this was my chance. I started playing guitar in college and Clapton was one of my earliest inspirations. I’ve always had this thing for the blues and he played it so well. We did go, excited on the way that we were gonna see the man. As it turned out, Clapton was just a part of the experience that affected me so.

It’s Saturday evening at Alpine Valley and the bill includes Eric Clapton, Jeff Healey and a guy named Stevie Ray Vaughan. I had all kinds of Clapton stuff in my vinyl collection and had recently bought a Jeff Healey CD which was pretty good. I know I had heard a song on the radio that Stevie Ray Vaughan did but I just wasn’t real familiar with him. I figure if he’s playing on the same bill as Clapton, he must be good. The band that Clapton had together for the concert was great. They did some of his classics, and some of the newer stuff and it was all great. I felt so thankful to be there.

Jeff Healey was damn good too. The way he played the guitar was unique, sitting with it on his lap with both hands above it. He fingered the chords like he was playing a piano or something.

But what really affected me in a big way that night was that guy named Stevie Ray. He played a bunch a stuff with Clapton’s band and I couldn’t believe how good this guy was. Then, when he played voodoo chile all on his own up there, it transformed me. Watching the closeup of his long fingers attacking the guitar on the big screen made me cry like a baby. It wasn’t the lightning speed that got to me – it was the way he was digging his fingers into every note he played. He made every note scream like no other guitarist I’ve seen. Not Clapton – not B.B. King – not even Jimi himself – nobody, as great as they are, had affected me so with their blues style. Mouth open, eyes glazed, I watched his every move, wondering where he had been all my life. My thankfulness for being there was soon replaced by a truly spiritual notion that I was part of a feeling that would never be duplicated. As I watched Stevie Ray, I knew I was there for a reason.

On the following night Stevie Ray Vaughan was killed in a tragic accident. To this day, I feel so lucky that I saw him. No matter what I’m doing, if I hear his familiar sound on the radio, I have to stop and give myself to his magic. My own guitar playing (and my love for it) was greatly affected by having seen him that night and I’ll always appreciate that I had the chance. Just as with other great musicians who died young, it’s so sad that we’ll never see the place he was on the way to with his music. Thanks Stevie!

(originally published circa 2000)

Did you ever realize how many people ask “how are you?” and never wait for an answer? And when you ask “how are you?” do you really want to know? “Not too well, thank you. I have a headache and my wife is cheating on me.” So, who is responsible for these polite greetings we use, anyway? Didn’t they know that an answer usually follows a question?

Here’s another one: “You look great today!” Thanks a lot. Does that mean I looked terrible yesterday? You seem awfully surprised that I look great today. And then there’s “good to see you.” Yeah, right! It’s not bad enough we have to work together everyday, disagreeing on almost everything, up to here in angst. You come in and say “good to see you” as some sort of testament of your ability to lie with a straight face. “How’s the family?” is another great polite greeting. Why not just say “You know, I forgot your wife’s name and don’t remember your kids’ names (if you have kids) but I don’t want to miss this chance to make you think I care and that I can relate to you, so, how’s the family?” A polite society, indeed!

(originally published circa 2000)